crying is more suffocating in my dreams.

today. of all days.

i feel compelled.

just to tell you that you are not off of my mind. 

or my heart. 

i cry over you even in my dreams. and it hurts.

and i miss every day that i live without you here with me.

still.

you continue to be the one that i strive for.

and the one that i love.

if only i could change the world.

or change time...like those kids on LOST.

maybe i wouldn't be so lost,

without you.

and i am sorry.