destiny this.

losing a friend or loved one, not to death
is difficult to comprehend
blame myself?
can i not just blame it on the way the universe works?
so many think of fate in terms of romance
fuck that
fate is being alone
fate is loss
fate is death
i have my whole life ahead of me...
a life full of disappointments
and regret

i wish i was that cat named hot sauce right now
curled up against what i felt was better than me
i felt life in those arms
we are all reincarnated right?
a loopty loop of survival
multiplied by how many stars there are in the sky
times that by infinity
that's what they tell me.
well, i choose to be hot sauce
there to comfort you
when the universe didn't work out in your favor
but i can't do that
because that is what is chosen
blame you?
can i not just blame it on the fact that this doesn't matter?
so many people are so snidely optimistic
fuck that
optimism is dead
optimism is dead
optimism is dead

groovy man